It's been a strange week. A was so triggered all week. A head my headache my ear was bugging me. But the strange thing a was doing good at work. Got the answer back from my boss on my having a job in the winter and a do have it. maby fund a new flat a can move in to in desember is 10 min from work instead of 1.30min so. and everything was good just out of the blue a whet on a bike ride to Stanley park with some friends from work no problems there. So way do a feel like something is wrong.
forest fire in Canada the city is just covered in smoke
So what is new. A yes networking yes a sad it. am making a game here on steemt and am been working on getting players and it's so difficult so am been joining all this difrent dicorde grupes and going in the the chatting room but a cant say anything a feel like i'm in the way.
A have nothing to say to all this people in there. And all my ides are just stupid and am not important and so before a say anything a have decided the are going to say now.
It's just down to me trusting me self to be inporten..and is noting wrong to get a no. a need a shit ton of time to feel am OK in a space, like with my friends from work a been working there fore 4 months and now a feel OK with going on a bike ride with them.
these is one "bird" lake on my way from work a stop here sometimes its a nice please. even in smoky Vancouver
So the game is not the most important anymore. A really want it to work and am going to work hard, but a have a bigger fish now. Make friends online.so a can use it outside the in the real world. My trust is like a is cube a need to smelt it before a feel safe. But in most in most cases a dont have the time to do so. So in the end am just choose loneliness over finding friends.
here on steemit a see all the people going after up votes like its no tomorrow. a vill not say no to it but, my life is more inporten then some cent here and there. and this is way a love steemit so much is has made all the possible fore me like a have almost every weeks sins January made a random Rambel. like every time a do so my self-confidence grows
@darklands is going online in 2 days. its still time to jone. the first wave.
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