I started writing this Fundition post some 9 days ago during a time when i fell sick with dengue fever. It is my very first Fundition post. Though i was bedridden my being just wouldn't rest and i would come here to add more drafts hoping to complete it; but then, my dad fell seriously ill too and without my own recovery, i had to spend some 5 days in the hospital with him, which prevented me from completing and publishing the post.

"Today however, i am making sure to complete this Fundition post because today, the 24th of November is a very significant day".

One year ago on this very day, my mum passed away. I witnessed the whole affair and it shattered me. Even though today, i am shattered still, i want this sad day to be special.

"Steemgigs.org" is dedicated to my mum and i had let it die but starting today, i want to wake it back up and i will need your help.

Steemgigs.org is one of the oldest steem-based app. It is a freelancing & dream-building marketplace built around the steem protocol.

It started right here on steem, under the "#steemgigs" and organically grew into a community of more than 5000 steemians on discord.

My witness name is called "steemgigs" to represent "everyone has something to offer", which is the very slogan representing "https://steemgigs.org".

Steemgigs.org (the website) began during the times, when my mum was beginning to pass away. It's very existence made her proud. By its existence, her ulogacy continues on.

If you want to read everything about https://steemgigs.org and its grand picture, below is a post written some 8 months ago, containing some 10,000 words:

The Grand Picture: The Detailed FAQ(s) For https://steemgigs.org & All The Answers.

Here is an old comment by @andrarchy (made some 2 years ago), where he reacted to the potential beauty of SteemGigs:

Did you notice that a successful steemGIG happened some 2 years ago?

@kus-knee had created a custom request at the time, to which @fisteganos offered his service. @fisteganos got paid in SBD and then went on to earn an additional 394 $ from his eventual SteemGig Testimonial post.

If you would like to read some more about how grand steemgigs.org can be, @stellabelle wrote this article about SteemGigs some two years ago: 5 Reasons Steemgigs Could Disrupt Fiverr

And more recently, @acidyo brought a similar topic up in his post here: Why VoiceOverPete should join Steem! Looking at the comment section of @acidyo's recent post, you will notice that steemians still remembered SteemGigs.

See these screenshots:

SteemGigs is one of 3 steem-based interfaces that will use the "Teardrops SMT". The other two interfaces that will make use of the Teadrops SMT are https://ulogs.org and "Macrohard".

Steemgigs.org entered Alpha stage almost a year ago AND it has once worked!

This is are passionate video evidence(s):

Below is some pictorial evidence:

It is indeed very painful that SteemGigs never entered full-blown life, even though it started on steem some 2 years ago. It is among the oldest steem-based app and until date, it has not been completed.

"The freelancing & dream-building marketplace is an entire niche, that still doesn't have a working steem-based app. SteemGigs can be restored to life within months, to help matters".

The Alpha version of SteemGigs has also stopped working for some time now as its development continued to slow down as so much "life" happened to me in the past year e.g "my mum died abruptly.........."

After not having seen her for some 5 years, we could only spend her last 16 days together in the Philippines, from hospital to hospital and https://steemgigs.org alpha version came to life during these times.

My mission when i departed from my parents, was to return to them with a "first whisper of good news" (courtesy of me). In a bid to make her proud too and "fight" during these last days of her's, i had pushed for https://steemgigs,org to come to life and it did but "life" continued to happen.

After she passed away and some months after her burial proceedings etc, without much "recovery" on my part etc, i had to relocate my dad to the Philippines, to live with him here. However, my dad arrived here, having a variety of serious illnesses and terminal dementia. Recall that he also has glaucoma.

His wife (35 years of marriage) was abruptly taken from him too and i now also had the task of watching him wail each day as a result and the constant task of explaining and re-explaining to him, how his wife can have left to the Philippines, to see her family and how he can't get to be with her, now that he is here.

"He was practically afraid of me in the first few months. All he desired was escape. He felt i would harm him as i did my mum".

Then came the new daily anxiety (on my part), from worrying about each day's hefty expenses e.g maintenance medicine(s) which costs as high as 50$ (per day), monthly rental for a residence that is just rightly-suited for him and anxiety from my own health perils and lack of "energy" to pull each day off.

"My health perils gives me my biggest fears. Currently, if i crash, there is no getting up. I know it". And my dad crashes too.

In my dad's recent bout of fever, he went into some serious "sleep episodes" and he hasn't recovered to full strength till date. We arrived at the hospital in an ambulance and returned him home in an ambulance, after having spent more than 1000 dollars (for 5 days) that the hospital had charged just to hydrate him and abate his dengue fever. He has kept on with "his excessive sleep" and he currently can't function e.g walk or sit up like normal.

Normally, my dad has lost sleep abilities. He is up almost 24 hours each day, talking to himself before this recent fever struck. Infact, that is the first time, i have experienced my dad, "down". He has a huge character. I still haven't figured out what happened to him but we had to go back home in the meantime, not to accrue too much bills at that hospital. I am hopeful that he begins to recover but it is approaching a week already.

As for my personal "health perils", it is practically un-explainable but now that i am seeking help at last, it should be known that my health has deteriorated extremely. It isn't obvious at all as i manage to keep on, on steem etc but this is because, "steem" very much constitutes a part of my healing. I love steem and that won't stop.

I have also build most of my impending projects, ulogacies and enterprises around steem and much of my healing lies in bringing these innovations, dreams and movement to life as my gift to Mama Earth.

"This is very obvious!"

Months ago, i would still pull off 10-hours-straight of talk on the SteemGigs weekly discord talk-shows, even though i spend each minute in those talks in excruciating 24/7 pains, "all-body-long". I would share laughs and try to inspire fellow steemians.

Know also, that I have long lost the ability to sleep and you may not believe it but i haven't really slept in years.

Please know, that "not sleeping" alone, kills. It is like walking/talking-dead. My brain knows it. I know it. I no longer know what "feeling sleepy" is. "No tests" done but i know that as a result of serious sleep deficiency, my brain is beginning to lose it e.g i no longer have long-term memory. Even of my mum, i don't have any distant shared-memory. It is practically gone! And of her "last 16 days" (my memories), even that, is already blurry. (I tried to play her last days back today)

This aside, my brain doesn't seem to any longer work well as it is "always on" or let me say that, it has lost the ability to really connect and control my entire nerve system, meaning that "all my nerves" are "always on" and extremely active, so that i no longer have the "ability to relax" (i can't enjoy anything or feel or have a leisure or see a movie etc), meaning that i get to poop once a week (because my anus can't relax), meaning that i don't breathe well and meaning that i am function-less and energy-less by default from "too much pain and stress and pain" and meaning that i can no longer do anything that a boy does normally and easily e.g play or sleep or enjoy meals or see sunlight or breathe etc

I am practically always in excruciating pains, in every position e.g sitting, laying etc (I go to sit on the toilet seat many times during a day, to find some hollow area to sit on, that will not inflict me pains, so that i can manage to work and pull off some steeming or thinking because the truth is, "my being just never rests" and will not rest, till some of my projects are complete"......

"We can adjust this together by means of your help".

Plus, i have "no outlets". i have done full-blown, ripe stress for decades now. I don't take pain relievers! (Well, these things are too weak to abate my pains etc)

It is a very un-explainable situation. When "others" become involved, i always look to empower and inspire "by default" (your boy Terry); so, you can never really know of my own perils. In many cases, if i can manage to talk about my own perils, then, "i am still alive" (the term "talking-dead" is common knowledge) and many other times, i either can't explain these things well enough using words or many can't fathom how these things are possible e.g can you really explain "that you can't sleep", when you are alive to explain it?

"My situation is only explainable, when one dies".

With the levels of stress and agony i have done, i entertain many health fears too, including cancer, kidney failure, brain damage. These fears hampers my possibilities for neuro-treatment etc because most doctors involved, will require me to do series of tests, which my "trauma-threshold" can't handle just yet, with all the array of jam-packed trauma that i have done recently, without respite.

If i ever get to sleep, it is simply "agonized unrest"; scary, irritating, dreadful and brings about no ounce of recovery. My dad doesn't sleep either and if i dare get "small sleep", my dad is in it, either "wailing or calling".

In general, my dad has huge character and he is never in "rest mode". Even his unconscious self, speaks of his unmet dreams. He can't see, he can't walk well (one leg approaching amputation and other leg has an open wound that never heals) but "he is always wanting to go to the site, where "they are building his houses". He is always asking "if the imported containers have arrived".

I am practically "drained" (my body), every minute but my being just never rests. Now however, my body has given up! It needs drastic healing ASAP, before it either dies or enters a state of terminal illness. (evidence of this, is my dad & mum and their health perils etc. I have done this type of stressed life without an outlet, since i was thirteen and i know that i am at a critical point)

I almost never ask help. This is another of my perils. Most times, even if i was dying, i hardly ask help. Steemit has helped me learn to ask, which i am beginning to do now.

Not entirely because i don't want to ask but for many other valid and valuable reasons. For the most part, i want to push. I want to create testimonies in the "push industry", so that those who look at my example, can know that the "harder route" is also a take-able route and maybe more testimonial too.

I can say "i have failed", especially with regards to "helping my parents" and even myself but just perhaps, "i haven't failed totally". Just perhaps! We now have ulogs.org, steemgigs.org, macrohard and the Teardrops SMT but these things must come to life, for all "my suffering to have essence".

Now, i really seek your help! I want to heal and it is now time but much of my healing begins with bringing some of these mentioned projects to full-blown life e.g steemgigs.org

Today is a day of mourning but my mourning can have testimonial essence in bringing others and myself some healing. So, i am using this day, to complete this fundition post, asking your help!

"I need your help to begin my healing. I want to restore https://steemgigs.org to life and full-blown use, by the entire globe".

This is my very first kick-start project on Fundition and i will do one more for ulogs.org in due time and dear steemians, i really, really, really need help.

I can heal! I very much want to get a healing but it is very, very, very obvious that in my case, much of my healing lies in bringing "steemgigs.org" back to life and ulogs.org as well, before that advent of the Teardrops SMT in March.

As mentioned at the onset of this post, i wrote out most of the content of this Fundition post, during times when i was suppose to be down with dengue, 'my first real fever in years'. I had wanted this illness to overtake me because i really wanted to physically breakdown even once, so that my body can relapse, to where even my being agrees to retire for once, with dire hopes that i can get just "a single day of rest",and i did get "dengue fever" but my being just never wants to rest, when it comes to these un-met ulogacies and dreams of mine.

Especially now, my being doesn't want to rest because i am "closest to quitting" than ever and i simply mustn't quit now! For the first time ever, i am closest to breakthrough with regards to my dreams. For the first time ever, all the models for what constitutes "surpassing Google" are set. For the first time, the model for each of three steem-based enterprises and the Teardrops SMT are set!

"I just mustn't quit now!"

Plus, in my case, the odds simply never stop. This we must fix or my quit may be a fatal one.

Notice that when i think i will get rest after i caught dengue fever, my dad got his own dengue too. Believe me, this is no coincidence!

While i planned to heal from dengue at home, so that i can use the money from potential hospital bills to buy several-days-worth of my dad's daily maintenance meds etc, it is not a coincidence that my dad fell ill too and that the ambulance that picked us, got us to exactly the hospital that is posed to rip us off so much money for nothing.

This is no coincidence. I have done this all my life.

It is no coincidence either that the development of steemgigs.org stalled. This will keep happening on this particular route of ours, till we face it once and for all and fix it.

"I have learned alot over the course of time and this time, we can bring the likes of steemgigs.org, ulogs.org etc to full-blown life, if we simply do not quit now".

I did lose my personal money during the earlier development of steemgigs.org but i have grown since then and i will make better use of a budget now. In the course of learning then, i built an entire enterprise around "subsidizing loss of money during the development of projects" called "Macrohard" and i have applied one of its principles (that applies the use of micro-programming task requests) in the development of ulogs.org successfully.

I will now want to raise a solid budget with your help to complete steemgigs.org, prior to Teardrops SMT in March 2019. I will now be able to make efficient use of this budget.

Note that SteemGigs already has a front-end and back-end base-code and it is all open-source. Thus, we are not far from bringing steemgigs.org to full-blown life and use.

Take a look at the SteemGigs repository on GitHub:

https://github.com/steemgigs

While @utopian-io have helped me a lot in the development of my projects, by paying the contributors to my projects, the use of bounties is essential.

If i am able to raise a budget via donations (courtesy of this fundition post), i will apply this budget in furthering the development of SteemGigs, using a series of micro-programming task requests and bounties.

Why Not Power-Down?

Powering down is critical at this point. In my case, it can lead to a fatal quit, especially in these times. With all the expenses i have each day, especially with regards to my dad's maintenance medicine and general needs, i have to be weary at this point about "turning hastily to the power down button".

I need instead to perpetrate the development and completion of my projects, using my last energy (1 more push-of-pushs) and create a sustainable economy instead for me and many others. (Especially now that two of these projects have base-codes).

It will take me only a few power-down(s) in my current state, to crash completely, much of which will go to my dad's medical expenses and without much caution, not one of my projects however close these are to fruition, will come to life.

Besides, i will eventually need this Steem Power that i possess, however small of it, to bring Teardrops SMT and all its projects to full-life and autonomously grow its resulting communities.

Too, at this stage in steemit's life and considering the measure of influence that i have, in terms of followers etc powering down, may be misconstrued as "quitting on steem", which is something i never do. I have had history here and built some strong communities and i do know that powering down in these times, can have impact on others and how they view steem.

I eventually had to embark on my first power-down, about a month ago to pay rent, server bills etc and i know that, that continuing on this path for me, will lead to an eventual crash. (My first power down, happened after more than 2 years of being on steem).

More recently, i have been applying the use of bounties in the development of my projects, in addition to the support that utopian has heartily given to me. My last utopian-based task request had a bounty of 100 SBD and my recent existing utopian-based task request has a bounty of 20 SBD.

I would like to use the money i receive from this fundition endeavor to build something, that adds value to the steem ecosystem and re-incite the existing "steemgigs" community to vibrancy, giving them a home and a means to a sustainable economy, even now when steem has lesser activities and when the price of steem appears down.

I will apply this funds towards furthering the development of steemgigs.org, offering bounties along with my utopian-based task requests. The other option will be try a more rapid approach to the development of steemgigs, using the services offered by @steemdevelopment, an enterprise that offers the services of "dedicated programmers", for a fee.

In general, I plead that every developer on steem reads this post and gathers to visit the SteemGigs repository to help out. Let's get to building!

Steemgigs isn't just a freelancing marketplace. Steemgis.org is a marketplace for SteemGiggers and "SteemGiggers" are bigger things than "freelancers".

Steemgiggers are Dream-Builders.

I also call on @fundition to give input especially from a "development" perspective. This involves advice, direction and actual development.

I consider @fundition also as an enterprise with expertise and experience in kick-starting innovation and i would value any input from your organization towards bring steemgigs.org back into full-blown life. If you have a team of programmers who can contribute code to https://github.com/steemgigs, it is highly appreciated.

Brief Conclusion

The @teardrops SMT is a breakthrough token and an emblem of human, that will used across each of our three steem-based apps. SteemGigs.org is one of them.

SteemGigs already has a solid community. This community has history. It is now time to join hands in bringing these ones a solid home on the steem blockchain. Kindly join hands, let's build https://steemgigs.org

"We will celebrate success with steem now and an eventual Teardrops SMT".

wakkylyon